Swirling and Twirling

So my life has been a whirlwind lately, with changing positions in January and getting fully licensed as well as attempting to lower my sugar intake and also working on opening up a small private practice of some kind. I am busy to say the least.  Most of the time I'm tired and my brain is full of information at all times.  Some days it feels like if another person asks another question I might not be able to handle it.  Other days I feel like hey I can handle this and open a private practice AT THE SAME TIME.  I'm seriously considering hiring a maid to come in and clean the house.  It seems as if no matter what the house never stays clean for very long and there is an endless pile of clothes and a sink full of dishes or a dishwasher that needs to be emptied at all times.  This is with both Daniel and I cleaning, cooking and cleaning some more.  Does anyone else have this issue?  It doesn't seem like I get a chance to stop.  Oh and did I mention that I also work 6 days a week? That is not helping with my downtime, I have so little of it that I just want to spend it with my hubby.  On the other hand I MISS MY FRIENDS.  I think what it comes down to is that I miss free time, unscheduled time time to do whatever I want, whenever I want if I want to do it at all.

Another Update

     So another couple of months since my last entry.  The holidays happened and it was super busy.  Surrounding the holidays I was offered a new position at the same company and had to decide whether or not to take the new position.  When I was offered the position the company attempted to low ball me and to keep me at my same salary with greater responsibilities.  I received some fantastic counsel regarding this move and rejected the offer. This was a pretty big deal considering the company that I work for does not give raises and is divided between administration staff and the therapists.Nary the two shall meet unless it is negative in nature. I had to meet with the Chief Financial Officer in order to express my salary requirements.  I practiced my speech to Daniel of course and presented it to the CFO.  I stated the salary requirement that I would accept and IT WAS ACCEPTED!  I also got this in writing which doesn't happen at the company I work for, I was quite impressed with myself. :)
     So I accepted the job and one of the positives regarding this position is that it is ten minutes from our house!  It is glorious I LOVE THE COMMUTE!  Some days my hubby can even take me to work which is lots of fun~ I am the director of the unit at a psychiatric hospital which is a whole different thing for me to learn. Inpatient treatment is very different than PHP work but is still with the same population.  I see much more acute psychosis than I've experienced previously and so it is taking some time to adjust!  I am also in a team leader position which is a new supervisory position for me. I do like being "the boss" although it is a learning process for me.  In the midst of this I RECEIVED MY PERMANENT LICENSED as a therapist.  It is AWESOME  I can now go in to private practice if I want to do so!  It opens several doors for me! 
     Currently I am still in the learning curve in my new position and I am adjusting to the new position and responsibilities (I may need to go back to the CFO and ask for more money)  I am continuing to learn more about therapy and about myself through this process and look forward to the challenge in the future.

Update

So it has been 2 plus months since I've written anything.  Trying to update is like
trying to remember what I wore yesterday.  I know I have done things but I can't
for the life of me remember what things I have done.

I continue to struggle at my job, but I am not the only one.
The administration does not understand what I do nor
do they care about what I do.  However, I am convinced
that they are actively trying to make it more difficult, draining
and less supportive than it is already.

So I already do a difficult job and it feels as if it gets more
difficult the longer I am there.  I struggle to remain empathic
and be the better person in regards to the administration, but
sometimes my empathy cup is empty.

I am trying to learn more each day and I am grateful for
some of my experiences  I hope that I can learn more
as I grow professionally and personally

Non sequitur

Non sequitur- THIS is the phrase to describe my job to a "T"
It does not make sense and that is the "norm" Its like a dysfunctional family
no communication, secrets, and rigid roles.

My job has been converting to an electronic medical records system.
Now, this sounds like it should be a relatively easy process except...
WE HAVE HAD NO TRAINING on THE SYSTEM and it was
NOT DEVELOPED FOR MY PARTICULAR WORKPLACE!
So now we are expected to use the system although we don't know how
and when we mess up as we are bound to do that is when we are
corrected and blamed for things going wrong although WE were not
COMMUNICATED how to do it the right way to begin with.

Imagine if we were actually trained how to do it, how EFFICIENT
that would be, how much time it would SAVE?
No though we are only "taught" with negative reinforcement and no support

Why church may be like marriage

So the hubby ad I were discussing last night about the high turnover at our church.

Not necessarily in staff but in some of the people that are in what I would deem

"lay leadership".  My hubby stated that having a high turnover of these "lay leaders"

Is not necessarily a good/healthy thing.  I responded that the the opposite is also

not healthy-having the same people that just stay and stagnate isn't healthy either.

So, how do you find a balance?  Stay at a church as long as it meets your 

needs and then when it does not meet your needs move on?  How do you decide if 

the needs that the church meets are more important than other needs or is this

more fluid than this dichotomous statement?  If you just stay at a church then

you run the risk of stagnating if you are trying to hold on to "the way it was" or 

is this starting traditions?

Or is committing to a church like committing to marriage, you commit to hang in 

through the ups and downs, the frustrations and the money troubles, and work 

hard at growing together.  I believe there is a fine balance between stagnating and

being non committal, I just wonder how to continue to find this balance and when

does it all become too much.

On the other hand is the church suppose to be about me?  Or what I get out of it? or

which of my needs it can meet? Or is the church about serving and loving on others out

of a place that God has created?  When does this serving and loving become draining and

painful?

Tired

I find myself to say that I am tired in response to the question "How are you?" ALOT

Even when I am not actually tired, its an automatic response.  I pray for the
ability to pause when asked this question and hear the question and answer; really
the question, from a place of grace and heart.

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Visualize using your turn signal
If Going to Church Makes You a Christian,
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Mean people suck
The gene pool needs more chlorine.
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A Day Without Sunshine Is Like, You Know, Night 
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I don't decaf
I don't do mornings.
I can only please one person per day. Today is not your day and tomorrow doesn't look good either.
I owe, I owe, so it's off to work I go.